Started on: 20.March.2012
Finished on: 22.March.2012
Title : Please Look After Mom
Author : Kyung-Sook Shin
Publisher : Phoenix
Number of Pages : 216 Pages
Year of Publication : 2012
Price: $10.17 (amazon.com)
“Your heart was beating so loudly that you could hear it. You were afraid to look behind you. The moment when you had to confirm that you’d left your wife in Seoul Station, that you’d boarded the train and travelled one stop…If you had turned around to check whether she was there as you got on the car, would things have turned out this way?”
This is a haunting story of a family. Children who just lost their mother, a man who just lost his wife. The children are all living in Seoul; and it was time for their parents to visit them from the countryside. Unfortunately, when their father got on the train to Seoul, their mother was left behind at the station. They were not able to find their mother in the station. That was when their mother, Park So-Nyo, was declared missing.
As they were doing everything they can to find their mother, the story tells the heart-breaking story of this family. Starting from Chi-Hon, the eldest daughter who became a successful writer. She started to remember how she treated Mother the way she shouldn’t have. Making her realize all the suffering her mother had gone through all these time. Realizing all the sacrifices a mother made, for her children.
“… I don’t like or dislike the kitchen. I cooked because I had to. I had to stay in the kitchen so you could all eat and go to school. How could you only do what you like? There are things you have to do whether you like it or not….If you only do what you like, who’s going to do what you don’t like?”
There’s also the story of the first and eldest son: Hyong-Chol; who was desperately looking for his mother, getting clues and hints time after time, but kept failing over and over again. Hyong-Chol then remembered too, how his mother had endured such hardships through her life; never complained once even though disease and sickness are eating her up. He also realized that somehow he made Mother felt guilty, because Hyong-Chol wasn’t able to fulfill his dream to become a prosecutor. And Hyong-Chol too, now realized and remembered all the sacrifices Mother had done for him. Realizing how Mother have loved him so much.
“He thought that, at her age, Mother would have ailments and illnesses. His sister ruefully told him that Mother seemed to be fainting from her headaches, but when he called home Mother answered warmly,‘Hyong-Chol!’ When he asked, ‘Is anything going on?’ Mother laughed and said,‘I wish there was something going on! Don’t worry about us… Take care of yourselves.’
“He never became a prosecutor. Mother always called it his dream, but he hadn’t understood that it had been Mother’s dream, too… He realizes that Mother has lived her entire life believing that she was the one who held him back from his dream.”
“When I first put shoes on you, I was really excited. When you toddled over to me, I laughed so much; even if someone spilled out a heap of gold and silver and jewels in front of me, I wouldn’t have laughed like that.”
Even the story of Father, So-Nyo’s husband, was told. They got married without even knowing each other during the war. And their relationship throughout their life was odd and awkward. Even though So-Nyo did everything she should as a wife, Father never appreciated nor pay attention to her. When she got sick, Father never had the urge to buy her medicine. He realized how much his wife had done for him; realized that he never treated her good enough, even though she had given so much.
"Before she went missing, you spent your days without thinking about her. When you did think about her, it was to ask her to do something, or to blame her or ignore her. Habit can be a frightening thing.”
“… You didn’t know that one day you would miss your wife’s nagging, which used to go in one ear and out the other.
But now you can’t hear anything, even though you got off the train and went into a blood-sausage-soup house nearby and had a glass, just so you could hear that nagging when you get home.”
“Where are you? If your wife would just come back, you would make not only seaweed soup but also pancakes for her. Are you punishing me? Water pools in your eyes.”
This book is a story how So-Nyo's family discovered what their Mother desires and hope for her family. A story that tells the relationship in a family, between a mother and her children.
"Even if everyone in the world forgets, your daughter will remember. That your wife truly loved the world, and that you loved her."
I have to honestly say that this story makes my heart ache so much. Even though the character Mother didn't show up a lot in the story, it feels like I know her character deeply; I feel her passion and love as a mother towards her children. And of course, reading this story reminds me of my own Mother, and thought of all the times I didn't treat her the way I should have. Definitely an incredible book, a well-written story and deep with emotions as well.
"Sister. Do you think we'll be able to be with her again, even if it's just for one day? Do you think I'll be given the time to understand Mother and hear her stories and console her for her old dreams buried somewhere in the pages of time?
If I'm given a few hours, I'm going to tell her that I love all the things she did, that I love Mother, who was able to do all of that, that I love Mother's life, which nobody remembers. That I respect her."